Category / Aging

February 14, 2016

16 years ago today my father died

Sixteen years ago today my father died. He has been gone for almost half of my life. Functionally it is more than that, as he has not met my husband or my children, seen where I lived, experienced things I have created and dismantled. Thinking of him has gone from every painful minute to daily to weekly to monthly. I talk about his preference for a certain candy bar when shopping with the boys, but it is fact more than his essence. Like a memory triggered by a picture the story conforms Read more […]

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October 22, 2015

My vagina is a slacker

  My Vagina I am not a modest woman. I am writing about my vagina for fuck’s sake. But still it is tough times on the table, and I am not yet in the stirrups. I sit in my miserable paper robe, called “huge” by the chipper weighing woman, but barely closing with its mismatched ties. It doesn’t have enough slack to cover me. My MD When the doctor breezes in she is younger than I am. This should not be a surprise, but it is. She sits on her wheelie chair and leans agains the wall Read more […]

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October 1, 2015

Letting Go

This weekend is the fiftieth meeting of the Wellfleet Psychohistory Group.  These doctors and scholars gather on Cape Cod every October when the heath and heather turn to their purples and rusts. They meet surrounded by the scrub brush of the National Seashore with a broad view of the Atlantic’s transition from blue to grey as it lets go of the summer sunshine. The sea shore that is their setting was founded by Kennedy in 1961, only four years before these meetings began. My generation thinks Read more […]

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September 9, 2015

Pick your poison

Old woman loves life

I had my teeth cleaned yesterday and my dentist offered me Botox. During the 15 minute battle to determine my dental insurance number I pointed to the laminated sign advertising smooth skinning poison and asked the woman behind the desk what she thought of the Botox. “It’s great, people say they have to wait four weeks at their dermatologist, but WE can often get them in the next day. White teeth and smooth skin makes any lady happy!” Convenient. Here in Denver woman can do things to their Read more […]

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