Tag / Awareness

February 22, 2017

Mindfulness- the utter misery of being awake

There is a crack in everything That’s how the light gets in. Leonard Cohen Next to me Steve rolls over to bury his good ear in the pillow. He clutches the comforter and pulls it to his face to better create a cocoon. He is not a morning person. I have been awake for an hour but just like my husband I am not quite conscious. Despite weeks of morning meditation my first instinct is still to hit the mute button. I have my phone in my hand flipping through the color coded screens in an Read more […]

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March 12, 2013

Parenting through naps and magic

Reading Leo a flier for Invention camp describing campers activities on Planet Zaq rebuilding their crashed spaceship he asks if camp is really on another planet. I can imagine the Mercedes symbol of the pie chart of his mind…equal parts hopeful excitement, fearful anticipation, and sinking realism. He is between these worlds still, magic and science and schedules and infinity. Oliver rarely naps. Both boys, all three of my family members nap less than me in fact, but something was tiring this Read more […]

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January 31, 2013

A something- why socks are just socks and loathing is lacking

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A wake. A live. A ware. I have been cleaning out my life to make room to step away from it. Before you start the private messages, texts and calls I don’t mean step away from it in any frightening way. I mean to observe rather than react. This seeing myself, in my fatness, in my will powerlessness, in my entrepreneurship, in my parenting. It has lifted. Today. Today I am none of those things.  I am working to untangle my ego from it all. Selecting socks this morning. I reached into the Read more […]

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